...as I have a quick meltdown.
You could say I have a lot on my plate these days. You could also say that I think all work and no play makes Robin a dull girl. So, you could then see how every now and then when this combination gets mixed in a pressure cooker, I eventually reach the point of combustion and all hell breaks loose. Today was that day.
Going on about ten hours of sleep in the last two days (thank you, Halloween parties and clerkship duties), I thought I was doing a fair job of managing my stress when everything that could go wrong did. That's when I finally threw in the towel, luckily within the confines of my therapist's office, and just started sobbing. Because here's the deal, Internet. Just below my silly, sarcastic exterior, lies the ugly truth that most days I feel I can barely hold my shit together. I fight the sneaky suspicion that I'm not smart enough, driven enough, professional enough, or good enough to pull off this sham that I know what I'm doing. Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough, period, and it's only a matter of time before you all realize it.
Bleh. This year was supposed to be easier. Not the year I put all my ish up on my blog.
Okay. Meltdown over. I'm going to bed. And tomorrow will be better. If not, there's always another therapy session to look forward to. :)
Monday, November 3, 2008
Pardon me...
Posted by Robin at 7:37 PM
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6 comments:
We love you Robin! :)
You can do it and you will.
Your Missouri Friends - Anthony, Christy, Tatum, Greta and AJ
You ROCK! You are one of the most talented and put-together people I know! I have no doubt in my mind that you will make it through. Some days are hard, but you'll feel better in the morning after a good night's sleep. And, there's nothing wrong with letting it all out every once and while. That's what a therapist is for! Getting it all out will help ease the burden a bit. And if you still feel stressed, go treat yourself to a manicure or a massage. You deserve it!!!!! Love you, friend :)
I feel like that a ton. You are not normal if you don't have a breakdown every once in a while. Yesterday, I found out that I did not spell a word correctly on some of my cover letters for intership, and i had a total meltdown--seriously cried and could not keep it together.
Robin, I think that you are awesome. I never would have guessed that you felt that way because you seem to be able to handle everything. I appreciate your sharing that because 1)it helps me to know you better and 2)it makes me feel more normal b/c I feel that way a lot of the time.
Sorry you are having such a bad day. If it makes you feel any better I feel like that ALL the time. I come home from a wedding and analyze my whole performance, where I feel I fell short, all the things I did wrong, etc. I drive myself nutty. Scott has to remind me to keep it in perspective.
I hope you feel better in the morning. I just met you once, but you seemed like a pretty put together gal!
robin. you are a gem. hang in.
coffee on sunday am?
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